Thursday, July 14, 2005
Reflections before surgery...
I'm scared shitless. I don't think the reality of this procedure hit me until yesterday. In my mind I was going through and trying to figure out what I would do if something happened to Jasmine. And you know what....I'd probably loose my mind. Things have gotten really stressful lately around here. Andy and Jenny are fighting like cats and dogs, I'm almost finished with my LPN (I take my final monday!) , I am going to start a new job in a month, and my husband is going into surgery next Tuesday. What more could happen? Hopefully Jasmine will come out of this great and there won't be any problems.
Andy has been a trooper. But I'm worried about him. He's not taking this well. He's scared I know, but I don't think he's letting his real feelings show because he thinks that he has to be the strong one of the group. Jenny isn't doing well either. She's stressing out and getting out of control. She is starting to go back to the way she use to be when she claimed andy was a horrible father and that he cheated on her and everything is his fault. Jessie is doing good. It's hard to tell what's going on in that seven year old little head of hers, but I do think that she is ok. She hasn't been to see Lynne since May. Her last appointment was cancelled and I think that pissed her off, but seven year olds don't make those kinds of decisions.
As for me...I'm emmotional.
For example: I got us lost today. Andy had an appointment with his pulmonologist and the lady on the phone said that the office was right across the street from the Rush hospital on the corner of Ogden and something or other. Anyway-i took us up to Rush where jasmine is having her surgery and we got on Ogden. We drove up and down the road looking for an address that wasn't there. So Andy calls the office and came to find out that we were an hour and a half away from where we needed to be. So we had to take a huge detour.
I need to get going. I have things to pack for tomorrow. Next time I type on here Jasmine will be straighter and healthier or things will have gone sour.
til then
please pray for us...
I'm scared shitless. I don't think the reality of this procedure hit me until yesterday. In my mind I was going through and trying to figure out what I would do if something happened to Jasmine. And you know what....I'd probably loose my mind. Things have gotten really stressful lately around here. Andy and Jenny are fighting like cats and dogs, I'm almost finished with my LPN (I take my final monday!) , I am going to start a new job in a month, and my husband is going into surgery next Tuesday. What more could happen? Hopefully Jasmine will come out of this great and there won't be any problems.
Andy has been a trooper. But I'm worried about him. He's not taking this well. He's scared I know, but I don't think he's letting his real feelings show because he thinks that he has to be the strong one of the group. Jenny isn't doing well either. She's stressing out and getting out of control. She is starting to go back to the way she use to be when she claimed andy was a horrible father and that he cheated on her and everything is his fault. Jessie is doing good. It's hard to tell what's going on in that seven year old little head of hers, but I do think that she is ok. She hasn't been to see Lynne since May. Her last appointment was cancelled and I think that pissed her off, but seven year olds don't make those kinds of decisions.
As for me...I'm emmotional.
For example: I got us lost today. Andy had an appointment with his pulmonologist and the lady on the phone said that the office was right across the street from the Rush hospital on the corner of Ogden and something or other. Anyway-i took us up to Rush where jasmine is having her surgery and we got on Ogden. We drove up and down the road looking for an address that wasn't there. So Andy calls the office and came to find out that we were an hour and a half away from where we needed to be. So we had to take a huge detour.
I need to get going. I have things to pack for tomorrow. Next time I type on here Jasmine will be straighter and healthier or things will have gone sour.
til then
please pray for us...
// posted by Jessica @ 20:30 
